Anxiety Is An Invalid Excuse.

Anxiety is an invalid excuse. I just got back to my room after a failed attempt to go to class. I’m sitting here, writing this, trying to think of something to email my professor to sugarcoat what I’m feeling, to really drive home the point that class today was unbearable for me. You see if it was the flu or a bad head cold this would be easy. I would simply relay the symptoms and be excused with a general “feel better” and a hidden relief that I wouldn’t be getting anyone else sick. To send an email saying I just had to take a breather on a 4th Ave. step because my lungs felt as if they were collapsing and my body was shaking so badly I could hardly walk doesn’t do the trick.

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Something I suffer with myself. Can be anything that suddenly triggers it, from trying to find my daughters trainers to brushing my teeth. One of the reasons why I sought help from KUWG after being under serious pressure when I was signing on at Kilburn Job Centre and having to take my daughter out of school due to a series of assualt in a sexual manner by a boy. Then the ensuing abuse and racist and racial implied slander towards me, my children and my childrens father. As well as having to take my daughter out of school at age 4, she had been attending the nursery class a year before, she felt she was being punished and became depressed. Needing counselling ofr her through art therapy and family counselling for me and my son. Since then the worry about both my children's safety has heightened and the worry of money or receiving/not receiving any government help has become something that I don't want to be dependent on in future. Sometimes the feeling is very overwhelming, draining, debilitating, especially alone and sticking to my study schedule, dealing with family matters and finances and the demands on my time and energy, so we all as a family of 3 feel included and heard. But its not easy and I fall down a lot. I'm finding being honest with the kids easier than trying to promise things I can't deliver and now my son is 13 he is able to relate as he is taking on more at secondary school.

I have also read lots about how more are suffering with anxiety in todays world as demand for faster, better, etc continue. People are feeling that the time to get away from all communication and devices is much more valuable.